UNSEEN BATTLE

UNSEEN BATTLE

This pandemic health crisis is a TEST OF FAITH. A faith that He will fulfill His promises. A faith the He loved us more than we love Him. A faith that He is compassion and merciful. A faith that He is our father, that He will never be abandoned nor forsaken us. A faith that we will be able to grasp His beautiful message. And finally, a faith that He is doing this, to fulfill our own purpose in life.

We have grown that we trust our Almighty, but sometimes we are also tested and shaken as well. In this time of pandemic health crisis, many of us build with fear and worries in our hearts. It is because of this so called- UNSEEN BATTLE that we are facing right now.

As part of health care worker, I am personally troubled. Worries and fears are running into my head. Negativities thoughts surrounded me, bothered me!

I believed that I am God’s warrior and ready for this UNSEEN BATTLE. I am also ready for the worst scenario that will come on my way. This is how He prepared my heart, mind and soul. But, in the past days, I doubt my strength, and capabilities. In short, I am also terrified in this UNSEEN BATTLE. It also adds up with the management that make our hearts and mind be confused.

But as His daughter and warrior I need to faced my Goliath. And because He is my Father, He knows how to comfort me. Last week, when I was confused and was include the issue of resignation on my list, He made a way to revive it. I watched the online praisefest organized by Liveloud. I was moved by the sharer, who is an ER- Med consultant. He shared the stories that they were facing including his own personal reflection. His personal reflection blown my emotions into God’s personal message for me.

 My personal takeaway to his sharing is when he said that; “I personally prepared you since then during your YFC days.” Tears continuously drop into my eyes, and it seems that He personally talked to me. Flashback happened. I reminisced the teachings that they have taught us. Be COMPASSION, EXCELLENT and have an INTEGRITY (Campus based core values). These concepts and His message of “do not be afraid because He is with me”, made my Friday night into a wonderful one.

That Friday was an affirmation night. Because of the overwhelming message, I messaged a trusted closest friend who can give me pastoral reflection and can journey with me in this winning moment. And praise be the Lord for the wisdom that He sent to him. It is indeed a winning moment of revival.

The journey of revival continued until on Sunday night, my friends in the community made a video to uplift me and make me happy. Upon watching that video, mixed emotions running into me. Para akong baliw! Tatawa tapos iiyak. As I watched on that video, napasabi talaga akong NAPAKABUTI ng DYOS sa pagpapadala ng mga tao that will uplift my spirit. They were gifts from heaven.

Now, I might have worries but I still believed in full faith that I/We will win our own Goliaths. This UNSEEN BATTLE might be big, but we still have a BIG GOD. His promise never fails like it is described in today’s first reading about God’s promise to Abraham. In addition, He also stated in today’s Gospel that “whoever keeps my word will never see death”. This is a powerful message of the Lord.