PEACE

This is the second light in the Advent.

 

How’s your heart? Are you at peace? 

It’s been a tough year for all of us. But is your heart still calm at the midst of everything?

 

This year has been a roller coaster to all of us. We have experienced different quarantines. This quarantine made our emotions to a situation that we don’t understand at all. Fears, doubts, and anxiousness came in. We asked help from someone, we sought help from our friends, families, buddy, and so on and so forth.

 

But towards the end of the year, and as we are in the season of Advent, how’s your heart? Is the peace of heaven instill in us?

 

We may encounter different roads, sometimes there were smooth, rough and rocky. How’s your journey for this year?

 

Let me tell you this journey of mine, and how I conquered it by all His grace.

 

At the start of the year, I am focused to build my career. I figured out that this year, I will fulfill something that I wished for. I was focused, and rushed to finish my deadlines, and to cover up my almost two weeks leave. Sleepless night started, and continuous reading. But the twist of the year has been started, because the health my parents tested. I needed to assist them on their consultation, meetings in the hospital and duties all at the same time. It was an exhausted one. My spirit was revived when I was able to share my time, talent and treasure during our relief operation in our dearest brethren at Batangas.

After a month, the most awaited event that I am waiting for, cancelled. But He made a wonderful twist for me. Different story has been established and wonderful memories has been experienced because of this cancellation.

On the third month, I was still pushing my paper despite of the pandemic itself. But when the quarantines raised, and our hospital has been converted to be a COVID facility, I needed to decide and rest my case. I need to accept that I will not be able to finish my paper. From that time on different emotions sets in like worries, fears, and doubts. 

I was able to conquered it through prayers, online worship, sharing to my closest friends, and family. They became my strength in this time that I was in pain. For me, all I can see was a storm and a gloomy weather. 

I was able to surrender to Him my emotions, there were times that I need to go to chapel (when GCQ sets in) and just look to His cross. There was time that I am battling alone. I wasn’t able to share it with others, because I think no one can understand me. I have a lot of rants on the present situation. And I believed that no one can be able to journey what’s is inside of me or no one can relate to me. In which the fallback, I would rather not to share and journey it alone.

 

Journeying alone is not my thing. I always try to share it with my family and friends either within or outside the community (SFC). But this year, I wasn’t able to share it all out. Some need to be voiced out, but some need to remain in me. Mental issues challenged for me the whole year. But at the end of every battle, the JOY to share it with others was a form of a greatest gift.

 

The word PEACE was difficult for me to see, but it changed as we enter in the season of Advent. I am trying to seek this PEACE, even the situation is not perfect, even there were people that will keep us to be annoyed, even there are situations that will keep us to be bothered and so on. I am still on the track of faith, and keep hanging that I and We may be able to seek this PEACE.

For those people, who have hurt by the situation, and broken

May you find PEACE, and

For those people, whom have I hurt with or without my intention,

PEACE be with you!

 

May we be able to see this PEACE through JESUS.