HEALING PLACE

This place has been so close to my heart. 

Every time that I wanted to be alone. 

Every time that I wanted to be in His arms.

And every time that I wanted to feel His comfort. 

I always wanted to go to this place. 

It was introduced to me with my Christian friend.

And from then on, I wanted to visit this place once in a while. 

It is along Marilaque road, and quite far from my house. 

But this place provides a lot of silence and serenity. 

It has cells, where you can contemplate and reflect a lot. 

There were also prayer huts where you can pray and meet Him with nature. 

This place has been so relaxing for me. 

Because of the ambiance of the place. 

It is like meeting my favorites, nature and with the Creator. 

That’s why it gives a lot of joy.

Unloading, surrendering, and forgiving are the reasons why I went up here this time. 

As I contemplated on my previous visits, some are just to breathe out from the stresses of the world. 

Some are the realizations that I need to process. 

This time, it became bolder, and louder. 

The challenges have become tougher each time I go up here. 

His generosity and greatness are vividly expressed. 

He doesn't speak out loud. 

He doesn't whisper into my ears. 

But He touched my heart through His words. 

The message for today's readings are the things that bothers me. 

And He spoke, whispered, and touched me through His words. 

The words that made me cry a lot. 

I am weak because of the standard of the world, in which I feel being unworthy, ungrateful, and bothered.

But in today's message, the Lord speaks so loud that “He will guard us, as a shepherd guards his flock.” 

This message hits me because of God's assurance of His love. 

But I admit that this is not really enough of what my negativities keep holding onto me. 

Until as I carefully read into the message of the First reading, that the Lord will never again make a division. The message is so clear of His intention, and His beautiful promises. He will never abandon us.

That He, the Lord, will make great things in accordance with His time. 

He will realign everything. 

This is Him, so powerful and great! 

That my plans will be realigned according to Him. 

No division will happen. 

As a sinful servant, I am questioning myself of who I am. 

Am I really manifesting as His good servant? 

Until, His second message, made an assurance of His love and mercy. 

As the Lord states that I will “cleanse them so that they may be my people and I may be their God.”

I may be an unworthy servant of Him, but because of His love, He already cleansed me. 

But the forgiveness of oneself must be taken over first, before anything else to see the pierced heart of Jesus who forgives us so much. 

It might be overwhelming emotions, but the Lord is so loving to express His love through His words. It is like saying, “My Child, I am forgiving you”. 

As I continuously grasp His message, he assures me of His calmness and peace. As He delivered to express that “I will make with them a covenant of peace; it shall be an everlasting covenant with them, and I will multiply them, and put my sanctuary among them forever.”

These words are so relevant to remain unto Him, because He is the God of peace. 

I might be troubled for so many reasons. 

I might be unworthy in the eyes of others. 

The Lord still assured me, this peace and nothing to be worried about. 

Because everything that He made is worthy. 

I am God's beloved daughter, and made according to His will. 

That I am made according to His standard and not with the standard of the world. 

As I continuously reflecting, I reflected into this song, 

Because our God is love and light. 

Our God is peace and joy. 

And He raises the weak and feeble.

(Our God- Liveloud song) 

… 

As the moment being in this Healing place, 

I have surrendered into His hands. 

I might be weak at times, ungrateful, and bothered, 

I might have a lot of negativities in my mind, 

But I know that the Lord is listening and patiently waiting. 

He just wants me to say it, to deal with it, and cry with it. 

I may feel different emotions during this Lenten season. 

But I am happy that the Lord keeps surprising me each day. 

Each day that strengthens and deepens my faith.