LISTEN TO INNER DESIRES

How’s your first month of the year so far?

Maybe some of us complaining about how this month become too long for them.

In one conversation, I overheard how this month had a lot of pains and trials that have been offered.

How are you? How’s your month?

Take a pause.

Contemplate.

January is my birth month, which is why this is also one of my favorite months.  However, in the past years, January had a lot of plot twists. As I assess from the previous years, it is the starting point of how I will start the year.

This year I am excited for this month. First, I want to start my journalling again. Second, I am looking forward to taking a big step in my career. Third, I am excited about how the graces and mission will unfold for this year. This excitement turns into a deep realization at the beginning of the year. I am now holding the cross tightly to enlighten the darkness that has been going through. I am kneeling before His cross to understand difficult things. And before the last day of the month, He showered comforting messages and people to affirm and to hold tightly.

This month is indeed a roller coaster event for me. Tears, joy, overwhelming emotions, and others. These events keep me stronger and help me to understand the works of the world. Sometimes it is annoying that it is not according to my personal plans. But I was able to understand why it needs to happen. I got to question myself about the decision made, but He comforted me with His message and reminder. I may feel that almost everyone is disappointed with some decisions made, but behind those disappointments, He sent people to affirm that my decision is right.  Some people became His instrument to be able to express how important I am to them.

Sometimes our presence, our works, will eventually be questioned by those people who will not understand us. Some will mock us. Some will express their dismay, and disappointment without letting them thoroughly understand your inner core. If these things might happen to you, open your eyes and your heart, and wait for God’s comforting instrument because He will surely express it.

In the past gospels, He reminded us to be faithful to Him no matter what. It may be blurry, but this will not be forever. Hold on to His cross, like a woman who touched onto Jesus’ cloak and was healed of His bleeding because of her faith.

I thought that I have made a wrong decision. But last Sunday, when I was looking into the cross listening to His voice, asking for an answer. I believed that He is telling me in silence, “Well done my dear Child. You have already conquered things. You have finished the race that I  have given you”. From this moment, the tears overflow. It is hard to understand if it is your plan or if it is His plan after all. I still do not know what it is, but I believe that in full faith, I am surrendering to Him everything. Indeed, listen to inner desires, and to His voice.

Now, I am excited about what He will bring tomorrow, but I am asking His help to let me cherish the present moment that is full of promises and hope.

January is the starting point of the year. He is setting the mood for us. He is keeping us alive to have full faith, hope, and love! Padayon,  kapatid!