SAWI TO WAGI

Wrote by rhodzjourneyph 12:11 AM Post Comment

Have you ever had an experienced of having a prepared plans for your future, whether a trip, career path, or any plans in life that never happened because of uncontrolled events? How did you react on those moments? Did you feel any sadness or feel so bad about that encounter?

I know and I believe that you have encounter these moments in life because of the pandemic. Many plans, and events in life that delayed our personal plans. I’d like to tell you a story of how events turned SAWI to WAGI.

2 years ago, I was motivated to finish my thesis paper as part of the final requirement for my master’s degree. I had already contacted the author of the research tool that I will be using. Revisions of chapters 1-3 was not yet ready, but I believe I can finish it. The momentum and the desire to finish it was up high. Until the sad news hits the nation and worldwide. In which, a health concern became pandemic.

During that time, I was demotivated to pursue it. I had a lot on my plates, like being a warrior for health sector, for my family and for my self as well. Anxieties was circulated all around, but the desire to be in the frontline is remain present. During those times I had my constants who was there with me, my family, and friends. They continuously reminding me every step of the way.

After a year in the battlefield, my RT PCR result was positive. I had a terrible moment that time when my mother also infected. His saturation level was decreasing. I had no choice but to surrender those moments with the Lord. Entrusting to His hands was the only solution that I have in me. After more than a week, I was cleared and may be able to return to work, while my mother got recovered after a month.

After surviving to those moments, I was also reminded to get back in track and finish what I have started in my study. I pushed myself to be motivated again and anchored myself again why I took the study in the first place. From then on, I had the courage to take the baby steps in editing again, and after a long overdue study I had my permission for the proposal defense. I had surrendered everything to the hands of the Lord back then. He knew what the level of fear, worry I have during that time. Because during the preparation of the proposal was the biopsy schedule of my father. But hold and behold the Lord is full of surprises as He gave us a wonderful message of a negative result 3 days prior the defense. He wanted me to clear my mind and focus on the goal, focus on the cross!

After the proposal, I need to manage my time in editing and Christmas break and family duties. The family also suffered from the lost of our beloved. This roller coaster of emotions happened during the time that I needed to edit my paper. After more than 2 weeks I was able to finish the revisions. Months after, I received an approval to be able to pursue on the next step, which is data gathering and chapter 4-5.

It was 3 months that I had my sleepless nights and tired physical body. I was drained mentally, physically, and emotionally. He also tested my faith during those times. No summer vacation, and no rest days. There were a lot of moments that I fell asleep while editing. Those precious moments, I have with me my parents who are very supportive. They cooked and prepared my comfort foods. They always checked on me and reminded to stop and have a break for the moment. I also found myself lost while walking. But the Lord was the great Shepherd who always help me to get back.

After an almost 7 years, I am ready for taking up the diploma. He never fails to sustain me all throughout the journey. Delays may happen, but the Lord will never be delay on His promises. His timing is perfect. Detour may happen because he wanted me to enjoy the present moment, seize the moment, overcome the tests, and hold on the cross as tightly as how He hold me tightly. He wanted me to carry His cross and praised Him along the way.

I can say that, I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

2015-…. Is signing off. Thank you, Pamantasan! Thank you, Jesus!

PS: If you encountered detour and delays, I hope you can find God’s instruments. They are God’s gifts! They are sent to us to cheer us up, to remind us, and to inspire us. I hope you have one, coz I have them with me.