ONLY BY HIS GRACE

These past few days and weeks, the unfolding of events quite fast as I am expecting. Turning problems into blessings and graces is how the Lord expresses His love. But the fast approach of it, made me stuck and forget to contemplate how the Lord unfold surprises and rather focused on how to solve another problem. The social environment also made me sick mentally, emotionally, and psychologically, in which I forget to surrender my personal battles to Him.

Past weeks, and days, I always tried to overcome the imbalance of my emotions and my mental state of wellbeing. I experienced anxiousness with the people that I commonly encountered. I felt the betrayal, selfishness, and unloving approach. I tried to understand and be in their ways. As much as I want to fix it and give my all attention to it, it resulted in forgetting to surrender them all first.

At some point, I lean on my own understanding and not on Him. Because of this, imbalances occurred and continuously happened until 3^rd week of this month. In effect, I saw His unanswered prayers and forgot to be grateful in some aspects. Personal connections with Him become weak, in which happiness and graces had difficult to see.

As the days become difficult to understand, I tried to revive and ask for His divine intervention. It might not be as strong as before, and as a little like a mustard seed, I still hold on to the cross and believe that He will listen.

On my special day, I was able to see abundant blessings and graces through God’s instrument. The loving, caring, and thoughtful acts of everyone made me feel the clouds in heaven and rejoice in His love. My friends, who became the source of joy and able to be the shed of His mercy was excellently performed miracles. The thoughtfulness of my parents made my heart to be joyous even more.

However, despite these wonderful things, my heart remains incomplete. I still want to continue my personal reflection and reconnection with Him. I want to journey with Him in the remaining days that I declared time out at my work. As much as I want to go on solo, my parents didn’t allow me. And His ways set in, on the process of my personal healing and journey. He sent an instrument for me, and so do I to her.

We had a wonderful conversation and I do believe that the divine mercy intercedes all throughout. We may have different phases in life, but I think the Lord reunites us to be an instrument to each other to send God’s affirmation.

Sometimes our healing cannot be achieved on our own time, and phase, but through the grace of the Lord. Healing happens according to His time. As I continuously reflect on our journey, the Lord will bring us the memory of the past and reminisce of the things of how the Lord has been good and faithful to us.

Sometimes reset, and pause is necessary for us to slow down and be grateful for the things that are happening. Acknowledge also that we are not okay and be open to His instruments because they are a gift from heaven.

Indeed, His words give strength. He heals through one’s faith and by the power of His only grace.