BETTER day is Coming!

BETTER day is coming!!

Wait, and see.

In the past 6 months, I have been struggling to the concept of TRUST and FAITH.

Trust, if I could conquer all my fears. Fear that covering my inner self for long period of time.

Faith, if I could overcome and finish the race that the Lord has been entrusted to me.

Last Regional Conference of SFC, my tears suddenly fell into my face. As I prepare for the day 1 of the conference, I was mesmerized of how the Lord helped me to finish the race and conquered my fear. For the past 6 months, I was battling of so many emotions that no one can understand it. Or should I say, I remained quiet for a time, and reflect more often.

The goodness and greatness of the Lord is real! He is real, because He will never stop in guiding you all the way to finish the mission/ purpose that has been entrusted to you. He only asked for our TRUST and FAITH.

Putting my TRUST into His hands that He will do everything to pursue me and see His goodness. He knew my struggle in terms of “partnership in mission”. He knew what my fears, and worries are. He knew my heartbeat, and everything about me. He knew the anxiousness in me after all the meetings, events, interactions and so on.. He definitely knew everything!

Faith has been tested for 6 months. It is like a roller coaster. A ride that I was able to shout and cry out loud into His name, asking Him to answer me back. I was about to tell everything to Him my disappointments, my negative emotions, feeling of unworthy. Doubting my faith was also my struggle, that has been running into my head for the past months.

But how the Lord conquered and win me back?

In one household, I wasn’t able to share anything. I wasn’t able to reflect on it. But I stated my emotions that bothering me. I was being transparent during that time. The things that bothering me and my disappointments. And this is how the Lord conquered me and win me back.

He wanted me to acknowledge the pain, the sorrow, the fears all out! Verbalizing my thoughts to other people are God’s instrument to ease my pain. Yes I hurt their feelings, but every tears that fell into their face and every words that they have said, is like the Lord telling me “my child, in your painful moment I was there. In every disappointment that you have, I was there. In every tear that fall into your face, my tears is coming out into my face as well. In every difficult journey that you have, remember I am with you”.

Days passed by, and joy is somehow coming out into my heart. The spirit in me filled with His grace, and suddenly I realized so many things. I just allow Him to purify and cleanse my heart. And He never fails! 

Affirmation never ends, side by side, front and back. It is like the Lord is embracing me so tight, and congratulate me for a job well done, saying “you have finished the race!”.

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